Battle
You are but a mystery to me Enigmatic, attractive, disconcerting Bits and pieces of a puzzle that don’t quit fit Intellectually intimate Emotionally, physically distant Frustrating, a tease, tempting and playful All in the same moment Understanding cannot be my goal Unattainable if it is And so I wonder what it is That I’m doing with you Why I bite at the bait you dangle before me A challenge, a conquest? Ah, but who will reign triumphant And who portrays the conquered? You are the master of this game For such trivial victory is not my seeking Neither the torment of a heart wrenched To lose myself in another Relinquish control and direction That is my ultimate challenge You are not an opponent I battle Rather it is myself Because of the perilousness surrounding you I am troubled with doubt Still undeniably excited by the prospects And I wonder if I am capable of such abandon with you But if I knew, there would be no need No desire, neither the longing nor the dread That inhabit my thought of you There would be no reason to continue the charade So I am destined to play this game until the end No rules save those we create Victor, vanquished, or surrendered Win, lose, or draw It matters not the outcome Only that I fought gloriously for my cause. |
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